Done it again

Historically speaking I have had the tendency to be too closed up. People around me really had no idea what was going on with me. I always played happy, happy, even though I wasn't. People can't help you if they don't even know there's something wrong.

Over the past while I've tried to open myself up a bit. This blog may even have something to do with that (although opening oneself up to complete strangers and anonymous ones at that is quite something different than to real people). But I'm not too confident in my boundaries. Meaning I think I sometimes am too open with certain people. Or in other words, maybe it's not that helpful to tell everyone who asks how my job is, that I'm actually quite unhappy (as with my previous job), or looking for a new one, or whatever have you. My policy was honesty. But now I'm trying for honesty lite: not everyone has to know the whole story. Which is fine and all until someone asks you a direct question, and keeps asking.

Now I've gone and revealed some quite personal information to someone I'm not sure I can trust. Both numerical information and a bit about how I am feeling. Dumb, dumb, dumb. Why do I let myself so easily be lulled into feeling someone is "on my side"? Is anyone really on my side?

Do not put your trust in princes,
in mortal men, who cannot save.
- Ps. 146:3